Nostalgia

Earlier this week I've been invited for lunch at the Zoo Lake Bowling Club.
Now, I have never been there, being new to this part of Gauteng, I am still busy exploring the surroundings.

I must say that I've expected something a little bit more fancy it being a 'bowling club', but to my avail it turned out to be just a normal place.  I was amazed at the amount of young people spending their lazy afternoons filling their tummy's with the cheap beer and food from the restaurant.  The food over there is really good and the atmosphere is relaxed.  I had a sudden reminder of my student days - Care free, young, motivated, in love with life, content with my surroundings, knowing that tomorrow is another day and that my future is in God's hands.

How I just sometimes miss those days 

But here I am, sitting in my aircon office, sipping on plastic coffee, being glad that every morning is a day closer to the - too short weekend.  I'm not too sure if I enjoy what I do anymore, I was hoping that the change in jobs and surroundings would change things, but alas.  Arent you suppose to enjoy what you are doing ? It's not as if that is what you spend most of your time with.  I feel bad for feeling this way.  There are so many jobless poor people out there, not knowing where they would sleep tonight or where their next meal would come from.  

I'm not too sure what to do.

I miss someone

Tonight

I miss someone

I don't know who

Isn't that strange ?

I feel so empty

I need companionship

About dating....and why the heck it's so difficult

So

I've been trying this dating thing.....and Eish......she's broken det whan

OMW !

Why the hell is it so freakingly insanely flipping difficult 

Huh ? Why ?

Am I ugly ? Boring ? Do I look in the wrong place or should I just stop looking all at once and hope HE will fall into my lap (figuratively meant.....well I won't mind literally :-)

Any advice, anyone PLEEEZE !!!!!!!

Marphy is desperate.

 

still contemplating

Seems as if I am still in the mood of last week.
Still thinking deep about the meaning of life - and whether it has any (yes, that is how bad it is) - This is just how I feel at the moment.  I think about happiness all the time.  Wikipedia says : 

Happiness is a state of mind or feeling characterized by contentment, love, satisfaction, pleasure, or joy. A variety of biological, psychological, religious, and philosophical approaches have striven to define happiness and identify its sources.
Well I ain't feeling any

Maybe I just need to take a break......thing is I can't.  There is no time to sit back and think about the direction I am heading in.  I've worked so hard to get where I am, I am already busy with my third degree and yet I am not sure if this is what I want to do anymore and if this makes me happy.  I mean, I spend so much time at work, isn't it supposed to be something that makes you happy ? I feel so bad for feeling the way I do.  There are so many people out there with no job, no income or even no roof to cover their heads, and here I am complaining...AAAARRRRGGG !!

I don't want to be alone anymore, but yet it seems so difficult to find someone....I've been on a date, and it is super difficult to try and figure out whether this guy is actually serious or not.  I am so frustrated about this.

And the worst of it all is that I feel BAD for feeling BAD, go figure 

What a wee(a)k

Hello all

Hope everyone had a good week and weekend.
This past week has been a hectic one, had so much to do, but the weekend was just in time.  Except for the week being a hectic one, it was also a bit of a strange one for me.

I thought a lot.......... 

About the meaning of life

Of whether I am on the right track

Of whether I am making and made the right choices

What if I had done things differently ?

What if I could go back and change things ?

Eish.....

It wasn't too nice neh.

But life goes on

As for the date....Mmmmmm, I don't know what is this boy's story.  Luckily there is many hot lonely fish in the sea.

Have a good week everyone :-)

Date Nite

Sooooooooooooooo

The Date took place last night

And uhm........(clear throat).......

Well, lets see:

1.  Personality - check

2.  Intelligence - check

3.  Maturity - check

4.  Keep a decent conversation - check

5.  Self confidence - check
6.  Looks - Okay-ish 

(OMW and you should see the job title and car.....)

It went really very well, we chatted the night away, sipping Frangelico and Kahlua talking about almost everything. I was really impressed with this guy, the only problem is that I don't think he was as impressed with me.  We have a lot in common though :-)

So what to do next ?

:-) < The look on my face because it's weekend

About a boy

Hi all

Remember that I said that I was going on a date on Friday night ? Well, it got canceled......to tonight

Eeeeeeeeekkkkkk !!!! Ja, I know, it gives me a day less to prepare and now the butterflies are having a ball in my stomach.

To be honest, I am expecting quite a lot from this date.....It's been a while 

And now my little head is overloaded with all the questions....

What if he turns out to be a serial killer ?

Maybe he's got the laugh of a hyena ?

What if he pitches up in a leather suit ?

Suppose I will find out tonight just after 7

Have a good day all

P